Summer is ending.

Summer is ending.

What can I say…I've had the beginning of a shitty year and towards the middle it got a bit better but they it went back to shit again.. The only things I am looking forward to these days is going to Iceland, and going to seeing my brother in Maine.. I think that's it. I haven't looked forward to anything else in a while(insert depressing ass quote here). I used to look forward to a lot more things in the past.. it's going to sound weird but I actually used look forward to going back to school… it wasn't even that I had a lot of friends but I liked the feeling of new things.. where did that feeling go?

Pre-Iceland

Pre-Iceland

I will be taking a trip to Iceland on October for my Bday with my friends and boyfriend! I am so excited!!! I can't wait!

Today however I was searching for a luggage and as if the universe was speaking to me… not only did I find the luggage bag but it was way cheaper than I was expecting. I grabbed the pink beautiful luggage as I am checking all the zippers and everything I find Icelandic water bottle inside the bag! I continue to the register I then turn to see a neck pillow! I continue on but this is where it gets even freakier… I am waiting for a register to open up and the register number was 4!!!! Which is not only my favorite lucky number but it's the day I was born and it's the day I am leaving to Iceland. I am totally freaking out!

Well that is that but after I left the store I started thinking what do I hope to accomplish on this trip? I hope I get to create a closer bond to the people I am going with but also this is going to be the beginning of a beautiful adventure and even more to come. I hope to also learn about myself and really appreciate nature even more.

I don’t know..

You know the feeling you get when it’s almost 2 am and your mind wonders forever? At that moment you know that you’re not going to sleep anytime soon. All the troubled things go through my mind at this exact time every night for the past 4 to 5 weeks. Sure, I tried going to the doctor but it didn’t necessarily work. What am I stressing about? Well of course mostly family, relationship, financial situations, School and me. I am worried about me, how can I be so selfish? This path am in wasn’t what I had planned for myself. I don’t know how I got here. Everything was going great until I graduated from college and met my current relationship. I haven’t been able to keep a job. I’ve lost the closeness to my family and I’ve kind of lost myself in all this. I don’t know this person I have become. Failing to care about school or grades. I don’t know what it’s more important anymore. How will I find my path again? I just don’t know…

As I lay I am still awake

This is my first post ever in a blog site. I am laying next to the one I love tonight and for the past 3 years. I can say I am truly in love. It has been a long road and there has been a few bumps in the way but we have manage to get through them. Starting this blog was more for me to get my feelings out there. I have issues dealing with a few of my emotions and I think this is a way of helping me through this. I doubt anyone is going to read this but perhaps my stories will help others like me out there. Good night world!